This story happened some years ago.
Back then I wasn’t very happy with my life – chasing deadlines, tired and stressed, living from weekend to weekend; enjoying the occasional breaks when I could sleep longer than 6 hours, read book at home rather than during morning commute and of course dream about all that I was going to do with my life… one day when…
…when I had more time
…when I was less tired
…when I had more money
…when I felt ready
…when when when… a word that became my mantra; my excuse;
I was drifting through life dreaming of a day when all the stars aligned and the change would happen. Because that unfulfilling life I lived… that couldn’t be it, right?
Not possible. I was better than that.
I was a caterpillar that would naturally turn into a butterfly.
And then one evening, sitting with a glass of wine, mindlessly browsing the Internet after one more miserable day, I came across a drawing.
Unfortunately, as I don’t know who the author is I cannot post this pic here. But here is a link (please let me know if it’s broken!).
I stared at it and… started to cry, right into my glass of Merlot.
This was me… this sad looking girl saying those sad, sad words…
Expressing the truth that I was too scared to admit even to myself… Time was passing… and I was doing nothing to become the person I wanted to be.
And If I didn’t act now, it soon would be too late.
I’d become this bitter woman, with lost dreams, sad eyes and a bag of regrets…
Never being able to forgive myself for not even trying to chase my dreams… instead of waiting for that perfect moment that would never come…
That night I drank and cried for hours…
Woke up the next morning with a heavy head and light heart. I felt like the shadow had been lifted.
I knew that I wasn’t going to wait for ‘when…’ moments anymore.
My ‘when’ was now.
Things slowly started to change since then. It was a difficult process…in a way it still is.
But my eyes are not sad anymore. I’m finally the captain of my life
And I refuse to drift.
…
How about you? Did you experience something similar? I’d love to know.
And please remember…
It’s time to act – it’s later than we think.
Now is a perfect time:
Click to Become To Captain Of Your Life
P.S. I tried and failed to find the author of this drawing. I hate to share other people’s work without crediting them, so if by any chance you know the artist, please let me know, I’ll be eternally grateful.
Andy Kay says
This is beautiful — and it resonates with me just a little too much for comfort.
We should talk. ;)
Dominika says
Yes, let’s talk :)